Road trip!

So Im heading to northern Alberta for work. Its very small and secluded and it might just be what I need before I hit the big city.

I havent talked to Nick in a few days and I was hoping to catch him on email or msn but I missed him twice today. Then I felt guilty for not making an effort to call. Especially coz I dont know when the next time is that Ill get to talk to him.

Work will be good. It will take my mind off the Visa, and, Ive been making a huge effort to forgive him for the delay. If I dont, I will feel resentful and that never got anyone far in a relationship. Thanks to the advice of a good friend.

So now I dont feel anxious or stressed and Ill be happy coz I wont be sitting around waiting something that I have no control over when its going to come.

I have applied for the runner job and I am feeling positive about the outcome. But Im not holding my breath.

I still miss him. But I can get through this and its easier than I thought.