Solitude

Since S went back to Canada, Ive been noticing that Nick is still going out quite a lot...without me. I didnt notice this over the past few weeks because me and S were staying in London till 11 at night almost every night of the week.

So Nick was studying for the past week for an exam that he tearfully failed, S left on monday, Nick went to football, tuesday he went for drinks with work...comes home at midnight and says to me...

"Thanks for not being a nightmare,"

What?

Then he goes on to describe a new guy at his work and how his girlfriend insists on him calling or texting her every 20min! no exaggeration! She didnt want him to start a new job coz he would be around other women and one time met one of the girls he worked with and everyday says 'hows Sarah doing?'...He was going to leave her but now shes pregnant!!

Then Nick was being all paranoid thinking I actually cared if he worked with women or not and went into lengthly detail about why he went out for drinks and with who...like I care!? I think this new guy is rubbing off on him.

...and he went out for drinks again last night to which I was going to join but then realized it was a leaving do so went home and spent a wonderful evening by myself with ebay, doing pilates & balance ball workouts and having indian take-out and wine. It was lovely.

I quite enjoy my time at home.

...I think Nick thinks I dont need him anymore.