Tissues for your Issues?

I don’t know why I continue to be perplexed when me and Nick spend a weekend away with other people and he turns around and says to me, "we havent spent any time alone together yet."

I don’t know why this confuses me. I always just imagine myself to be saying it. When he does, I feel perplexed. Not because Im insecure about us but because I don’t think that this is important to him. I thought it was my need to have him all to myself and think that we don’t spend quality time together.

Quality time. This is important to me. It is also my #1 love language. So far, In the past week weve hardly seen eachother. Hes been saying that he needs to study for his exam (for work) so he seems to clear his schedule in advance. I even give him space to do that. Problem is, he finds anything else to do but study.

So last Friday, after work, he went out for drinks and got home at 10:30. Saturday I let him be and did errands for 5 hours during the day. He called and asked me how to plug in the dvd player. Sat night, he went out to his friends Bday while I stayed in and watched dvds. Sunday was spent at the house, me doing chores around the house….him…I don’t actually know what he did. Then his family came over Sunday night to bring Beths bed & wardrobe so they stayed till about 8. Monday, he had football and drinks after, Tuesday he had work drinks. Wednesday, we were both tired so slumped in front of the TV till 10:30. Where is the quality time spent there? He still hasn’t studied (at all) and I have hardly seen my boyfriend.

Im out for work drinks tomorrow night as well. I still don’t feel like drinking and havent since New Years. This was Nicks vow to himself that he didnt keep and is now back to his old ways.

I have also decided to leave the dirty dishes. Period. Only wash things that I need. They will probably pile up but twice this week he was meant to do them, says hes going to, and then comes to bed. Does he think they wash themselves? Although Beth did wash them after I made dinner the other night.

Obviously there is an issue here. And its so frustrating. Oops, this post meant to stay warm & fuzzy but then got taken over with quality time and dish issues. Sorry.

Sigh.