So Ive been hanging around these gay men at work and one of them, is very gay (but not the flamboyant kind) and hes amazing. For selfish reasons of course, he makes me feel so good about myself. Hes constantly telling me how smart, pretty, talented, fun to hang out with...you know, the works. Its like, does a man haveto be gay to tell you how great you are?? Dont get me wrong, Nick always compliments me, he tells me I look pretty (even when I know I dont), if we go out and people meet me and like me, he always brings it up of what they said about me. Words of Affirmation. I dont think I tell him things like that enough. I think thats why I fell in love with him...coz he emailed me for 4 mths before we met up in Australia and said the most amazing things to/about me in them.
Anyway, Ive been hanging around him quite alot lately. Hes like the guy who I know wont hit on me (and he's really stong with a six pack!) but I still have that testosterone in my life. Even if he is playing for the other team! The people at work are amazing and have totally gotten me through these past few months. They were so sweet for my birthday yesterday and one even made me a cake!!
I was also looking into flights yesterday for Sept 14th. I sooo dont feel ready to go there. Im trying to imagine my life how it will be when I get back. I cant tell if they're happy memories or not. Me and L will have to take some kind of dance lessons or something again to give me my girlie time away from him once in a while. Its coming so soon.
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